we are the people who rule the world... [29 Dec 2009|09:51pm] k_ziz [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | [joakim - spiders (ewan pearson remix)] ] So it turns out I'm done with college (for real) this August. Ever since the dean of the business department told me i've been reflecting on some of my (mostly academic) achievements over the past 3 and a half years: 1) transferring out of Pace so i wouldn't be stuck with $80k (+interest) in debt 2) making my mark at NCC by becoming a radio dj there continuing to this present day, two years later 3) getting into Baruch College (even though i did terribly and got physically ill from the commuting and the random smells of curry on 23rd and lex and then transferred, yet again.) 4) going back to NCC within a days notice, passing calculus after taking it and failing it twice, and finally ending the semester by getting my associates degree in business administration (only two years after i started there, and three years since i first started college) 5) moving out of my house after twenty one years of supression (yet, i miss them every day) 6) finally being happy at old westbury, and almost getting straight a's this semester (damn global business) and having a great learning environment 7) and not dying. so in a few days, it marks a new year. i suppose by writing this list i'm trying to give myself something to be proud of. but sometimes i feel like its not enough. i don't know to whom, but maybe its to myself. the past three and a half years have been very memorable, but challenging at the same time. between steve's accident, and being bitter and uncomfortable at baruch, or even the letdown of the initial college transfer after my freshman year has led me to upsets and letdowns. will 2010 be better? what does the future hold for me? will i be living on long island this time next year? its weird but in retrospect, the chain of events (to me) occur like this: birth and babyhood - elementary/middle school blurr - high school - college - career or marriage (whichever comes first) - kids (for most people, hopefully not myself) - middle age crisis - aarp mode - death that means, for me, marriage! or career! is next oh my god. well i have myself started on my career since i've been working in my field for the past 5 months, and will have almost 8 years of office work experience by the time i graduate in august. so i would say that came first. but marriage? what? its probably true. i mean i'll be married before (if) i have kids. its a different way to think about it, but "real" life is just around the corner for me. post comment

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